Tuesday, April 7, 2009


There is a difference between ‘the teachings about Jesus’, and ‘the teachings of Jesus’.

The teachings about Jesus come to us through organized religion, while the teachings of Jesus come to us directly through the intimacy of our own experience.

The teachings about Jesus are only relevant to self-proclaimed Christians, while the teachings of Jesus impact all humanity regardless of race, religion, or gender.

The teachings about Jesus raise him above us as ‘untouchable’, while the teachings of Jesus bring us face to face with him as equals upon the same evolutionary adventure.

The teachings about Jesus are a mental discussion and ritualistic obedience toward rules and regulations formulated from observance of his supposed physical activities.

The teachings of Jesus are discovered through personal insight - through entering ones own authentic emotional predicament upon the resonance of unconditional felt-perception.

As we now move toward and through the Easter weekend, it feels appropriate to share some insights related to ‘the teachings of Jesus’ – specifically regarding the energy set in and around the crucifixion.

Judas is no betrayer – he is possibly the only person Jesus could trust to set up the event intended to ground ‘inner transformational alchemy’ into the physical world so as to make this awareness available as our humanity approached this level of our evolutionary adventure.

The other disciples did not ‘fall asleep while Jesus stayed awake throughout the night' – they were overwhelmed by the intensity of the unconsciousness related to the surfacing emotional signature being triggered by this deliberately staged event. Only Jesus, because of his personal training in alchemy, had the capacity to remain conscious as these energetic circumstances unfolded.

The kiss on the cheek was not ‘an unexpected deception’ – it was a symbol to Jesus that ‘the game is on’. The kiss is a symbolic representation of ‘the trigger'– or as we call it in THE PRESENCE PROCESS – ‘the appearance of the messenger’. Jesus was being set up – deliberately. He had trained for years to carry out this final demonstrations of alchemy as being ‘the means for humanity to perceptually move itself from The Boredom and into The Kingdom’.

The arrival of Judas and the soldiers was ‘the upsetting event’ – the sudden appearance of circumstances that turn everything upside down. It was the ‘thief in the night’ – the sound of breaking glass in the early hours of the morning when we are sound asleep. It was the crisis revealing what Christ is.

If we check into ourselves, we discover that whenever we are personally ‘set up’ – the reason we do become so upset about it, is because we feel as if ‘we have been betrayed’. Anyone bringing reality into our illusions is initially considered by us to be 'a betrayer'.

As Jesus stood before Pontius Pilot, he was asked the most transformational question possible: “Are you who they say you are?”

Whenever we are upset – we are experiencing a triggering within our emotional imprint upon which a manufactured identity has been built. The upset is 'anything challenging the validity of our ongoing impersonation'. The upset is a circumstance which directly contradicts our pretentious portrayal, and in doing so, challenges us to see it, admit to it, and through felt-acknowledgement, to overcome it.

Ask yourself: “Am I really the person people say I am? Am I really the persona I have manufactured in an attempt to sedate and control my imprinted fear, anger, and grief? Am I indeed the effect of my generational, emotional imprinting?”

Accordingly, Jesus was asked: “Are you who you say you are?” Then he was told, “If you are, you may go free, if not, you must die?”

Of course Jesus was not, ‘The King of the Jews’. He could never admit to what he was not. If Pontius Pilot had instead asked, “Are you a vibrational being currently having an emotional, mental, and physical experience?”, he could clearly have stated “Yes” and been freed. But that was not what this entire setup was about.

No upset ever questions our authentic essence – it is always an affront on our inauthenticity. When we react, when we defend our position – we hold fast to what we have manufactured as a consequence of our imprinting. If, when we are upset, we reactively defend our stance to the point of placing the erupting attention upon another or elsewhere [through justification or blame], we have then successfully escaped and freed ourselves of the discomfort of having to take responsibility for our experience.

Jesus’ popular identity as ‘King of the Jews’ had everything to do with the collective, unresolved, Jewish imprint, and absolutely nothing to do with his actual intent. He could not admit to what he was not. Consequently, Pontius Pilot had no choice but to sentence him to death.

In the same light, when we are upset, and instead of reacting, choose response through containment, we are volunteering to die to what is inauthentic about the nature of our persona within that triggered moment. We are choosing not to continue sedating and controlling the imprint now in question – but rather to be with it as it is through felt-perception until its illusionary state is integrated.

Just because Jesus was adept at this kind of work does not mean that he experienced no fear in the moment he was sentenced to death by Pontius. Fear was everywhere in that experience. However, he did not try to escape it by explaining ‘what a terrible mistake this has all been’. He did not justify or debate or blame. He felt the fear. He contained the fear. He required the fear. His quiet, non-defensiveness, was a deliberate response to this primal fear – the fear of ‘physical death’.

When we are upset – our immediate impulse toward reactivity is born of not being able to contain the fear. After the betrayal of the messenger, fear always comes first: The fear of ‘now having our manufactured projection called out and revealed’ - the fear of having to die to what is inauthentic about ourselves.

After being sentenced to death, Jesus then entered ‘the walk of shame’. As he made his way through the angry crowds toward the crucifixion, many shouted, mocked, scorned, threw rotting matter, beat at him, and tried their best to shame him.

When we do not defend our manufactured identity, we are shamed because of it. People then say and do terrible things to us because, when we do not defensively maintain our projected persona, others mistakenly assume it is because we are actually siding with it – and so we are judged accordingly. This can mean great shame, harsh words, and reprisals. Any defensive stance we resort to when ‘upset’ is an attempt to prevent this eruption of this shame.

When others accordingly shame us, we feel angered, enraged, and infuriated. This angered state is then often the point at which we do become reactive, and not only defend our projected persona, but in turn attack those who are participating in revealing and shaming our false projections.

Just because Jesus spent years in training for this moment does not mean he did not feel the anger, rage, and venom. Despite what the ‘teachings about Jesus’ lead us to assume – Jesus was human while human. As he walked with his cross, all around him, within and without, rage spilled over and became torrents of abusive violence. He felt it. Yet, he did not defend himself, nor did he try to take the attention off himself by attacking his attackers. He contained all the surfacing anger. He required the anger. His walk of shame was a deliberate intent to gather this primal anger – the anger which always arises in defense of our egoic manifestations.

The people were furious that he would not be ‘the King of the Jews’ for them. The people were enraged that he would not disempower them of their personal responsibility by giving them someone to follow.

When he arrived at his place of reckoning, there were many already waiting there who loved him dearly, but who did not have the capacity to comprehend what had been set in motion. He saw and felt the bewilderment upon their faces. He could not tell them, “Do not worry – this is required”. As the crucifixion ritual unfolded, the grief swam within him and around him so thickly that many felt as if they were drowning in it. Yet, he did not try to stop anyone from experiencing what they were experiencing. He did not try to comfort them. Instead, he consciously felt all this grief. He required feeling this primal grief – the grief that comes from the false belief that we can actually lose something we love.

It took Jesus three hours of conscious containment of the fear, anger, and grief he had gathered since Judas’ profound setup to accomplish integration. He had to die to all of it. In the midst of the death, he asked the same question we all ask as we are approaching integration of any primal imprint – “Father, why have you forsaken me?” Jesus too had to surrender – to become so vulnerable that he even questioned his own divine connection with the vibrational – before making the perceptual shift from The Boredom into The Kingdom.

The teachings about Jesus lead us to believe he did all this so we do not have to.

The teachings of Jesus reveal that he was deliberately anchoring within the physicality of the human experience a metaphoric demonstration of what everyone who intends awakening into vibrational consciousness has to move through.

When we follow this alchemical demonstration, when we become intimate with our own emotional imprinting [fearfully and callously called ‘sin’ by the religious], when we contain it as it is brought into our attention through our obedient Judas’s, we too are able to tread the long and winding road which leads us into vibrational awareness.

Anyone who attempts to convince us that because Jesus did it - and if we then accept he did it for us - that we then do not have to engage in any such inner activity, rob us of our salvation.

Jesus placed the revelation of this energetic Pathway of Awareness into this world 2000 years ago for us today. The story of the crucifixion is a demonstration of the conscious movement from ‘the upset’, through the fear, then anger, then grief, into the resurrection from the imprint.

Our world is currently being set up. All that is inauthentic - every structure we have built and every action we have taken as a reaction to our individual and collective emotional imprinting - now approaches reckoning. Every ‘catastrophe’, be it environmental or economic, is asking us, “Are you who they say you are?”

2012 is the crucifixion of humanity. Once passing through this portal, we become vulnerable to a transformed way called 'being' – one in which our vibrational essence is consciously honored as causal. Much has to die between here and there. Within this year alone we are still to experience some major planetary crucifixions. This is because we now approach the Easter of our human evolutionary experience.

I have often written and said, “THE PRESENCE PROCESS is not what we think it is about.” As we move through the next three years, many of us [including myself] shall repeatedly real eyes the relevance of this statement.

This intimate heart-work is not about having us live happily ever after within the identities and structures manufactured out of our emotional signatures. This intimate heart-work is about training us experientially to not only consciously contain these erupting signatures within ourselves, but to remain grounded as millions literally go mad with fear, anger, and grief.

Every deliberately initiated crucifixion has profound consequence.

This Easter weekend we are again reminded that this work is nothing new. It is not even religious. Our moment of evolutionary harvest has arrived. There is nowhere to run to and nothing to do. Pontius Pilot is everywhere. Death sentences are being handed out like parking tickets. Angry crowds are gathering to blame and shame. Those we love stand around not comprehending what is happening. Can we consciously die to all of this – or are we going to fight tooth and nail to defend it?

Being with what is without condition on the level of felt-perception contains within it the same radiance as expressed through Jesus during his crucifixion - the same resonance that carried him through that final moment of doubt into the dissolving of the perceptual veil concealing The Kingdom from its children.

We are blessed who real eyes this.

Realizing this, and responding accordingly, sets up our life experiences to become islands of salvation in amidst the stormiest seas yet witnessed by humanity.

When, through containment, we are able to walk through the current emotional chaos unfolding upon planet earth without drowning unconsciously in it – then we are 'walking on water'.

My prayer for myself and for you all this Easter is this: ‘Walk on water’. No matter what happens, walk on water. This planet requires our conscious presence now more than ever. Be ever conscious of the Pontius.

“Are you really who they say you are?”